Here’s the thing. I’ve been stumbling through the past couple of years of grad school in the unpredictable and impervious current of depression. I have managed my way through. I’ve stood upright at least once every day. I take my medication with food. I reach out to friends and family sometimes. sometimes. I see my […]
I’ve been wanting to write about what’s been going on for me for a few weeks now, but have tended to talk myself out of it because (?) Whatever the reason, an unleashing must be unleashed before I can move on to the daunting amount of reading I have to do for school. (Or anything […]
My parents are moving into a smaller house so they’ve started the process of going through their things. Things they’ve accumulated over the past 40 years or so. As a lot of children do, I’ve stored things of mine at their place over the years so I’ve started looking through them. Some I’ve packed and […]
It’s been a rough week. Of spending too much time with my mattress and comforter. I’ve been working with my psychiatrist to address my lethargy, a symptom of depression that can be taken care of with medication. However, it can take some time and a few rounds of trial-and-error to determine what works. A few […]
As the LA morning unfurls. I am realizing how much I needed this time away. to allow my body and mind to relax – and untangle. When I would otherwise be sitting in an office. at a computer. emailing. saving files. editing. composing. reading. printing. Word-wrangling. (etc), I will be writing (like. .with a […]
I left K’s blanket, that fell from the window by her computer, out in the rain. I sandwiched it between the window frame and windowpane to block the sun as I lay on the couch watching streaming TV in my PJ’s all day. I slept and woke and slept, it rained, I woke and slept. […]
The length and frequency of depressive episodes, phases, bouts. Are different for every body. And the nature and course of these episodes, phases, bouts. Change over time. (Just to keep things spicy.) Of the 15+ years I’ve had depression, I have not experienced the quick and frequent transitions between ‘depressed’ and ‘not depressed’ states as […]
/ There are days when I feel slightly awkward. / Slightly present. / Slightly ‘blah’. // There are days when I want every step to be a jump. / Every utterance comes from my core. / Each moment is recognized as an opportunity for creativity. / Written Wednesday, August 22nd, 2012 @ Volunteer Park.