To smile at people. awkwardly

It took me 8-or-so years to finish undergrad. I was in-and-out of university numerous times. Over that period, I experienced multiple: bouts of depression —if it ever really let up— a few suicide attempts counselors (one of whom fell asleep as I was talking) Um.  #YESway doctors, shrinks, medication (I couldn’t tell you what all of them […]

Interview: The Frontmen of Teen Funk Blues Band —Foxy Apollo— Talk Music, Mental Health & Ageism in the Seattle Music Scene

Foxy Apollo is a teen band. This is an important detail because teenagers are, so often, written off as overly emotional or are told things like, “you’ll understand when you’re an adult.” Fuck that, I say. You don’t need to be an adult to make great music that moves people.  – Odawni A couple of months […]

Social Media Maven (in-the-making)

NOTE: I have changed course a bit since I wrote this. However, Depression + Social Media are still relevant. okcontinueon Oh, this poor blog. How I have neglected you so! When you check your #WordPress site stats, do you ever see images run through your head, of people all over the world who’ve read your […]

On the outside, you see: showered, dressed, freshly brushed teeth.

Here’s the thing. I’ve been stumbling through the past couple of years of grad school in the unpredictable and impervious current of depression. I have managed my way through. I’ve stood upright at least once every day. I take my medication with food. I reach out to friends and family sometimes. sometimes. I see my therapist. On the days I want to hide away and bury my head in my cat’s soft, warm tummy, I push myself to walk the 20 feet to the mailbox across the driveway. Other days I run my 3.2 mile route to Meridian and bounce back on the Interurban Trail. Sometimes I force smiles at passersby. Sometimes the smiles are spontaneous. Surprises. they’re real. Felt.